Currently Listening In My Own Words By Ne-Yo Mirror see related

just a throwback. let me know if i should come back to xanga.

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running and running with no where to go
my heart is heavy and my breathe is slow
my head says no more you aren't ready
but from the start i knew this pace
was as steady as the look on my face
as i
decide to smile to hide all this pain
it's sunny outside but inside me it's raining
it's the same old bullshit
who knew it would always be here
it won't let me forget about shit that used to be dear to me
but now it's all so clear to me how that shit is now unreal to me
how could i not see all the bullshit it now appears to be
the lies and things he said to me
were merely ways for him to bed me
and i was so blind to the kindness in his voice
because it's what i've been wanting to hear by choice
and now it's haunting me
how i could let such stupidity
take control of me
to let go of myself so loosely
and then know and realize
that the things i've done have lead to the demise
of my truly loving heart
i promised myself i would guard myself and i wouldn't fall apart
but now i see that to accomplish that is hard
and i'm tired of working toward
something so impossibly out of reach
no more miss nice, now forever a bitch..

Here's to making out, pulling out, passing out and testing negative!
Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired!